if only you could understand

once again,im looking throught the mists of my eyes.but hasnt it been like this all this while?
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avoid,stuffing,giving in.i tried almost everything but nothing seems to work nor help.my faith is getting thinner.my hold is getting looser.i have do all i can,all that is within my abilities.i have given up every single bit of my dignity,all my pride.All i did wrongly was to flare up today due to sleep.One mistake,and everything is gone from my fingers once again.
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hold on or let go?
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i need a journey to the never return island.