life has been hectic, therefore the lack of entries. sincere apologies! so im blogging now cause miss
shellen left a tag that goes update! heh.
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school is disgusting, major turnoff. whatever bad words you know of, you got it. due to some modules being class rated and no final year examinations, i have to drag my ass down to school every monday and thursday to pretend that im participating enthusiastically in the lessons. hectic week next week. 2 major presentations but at least, i would be pretty free after these. personal individual assignment due the week after, i need help. sigh.
Groupmates have generally being alright, other than a particular group. perhaps i jus cant take it when people are so hardworking?most likely.cause, i feel as if i did not contribute significantly. oki cel, you are in year 2, bloody wake up.sigh. time is shooting past me.jus today, i was supposed to go work at 9am.blink a little its already 1pm, i did not even do anything constructive.
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i have no idea what are you expecting from me,but i know you aint the only one in tears. my thoughts are in a whirl, as i try figuring out the underlying meaning you have in your word and actions. i know you have been doing alot, but you are expecting even more in return. and within minutes, you pretend as if nothing happened. im confused. i feel like im being driven crazy. i have no choice but to avoid you, seek refuge and solace in work. im scared. i dunnoe wad lies ahead. and its getting bleaker by the minute. everytime the thought of you surface, tears filled my eyes to the brim and i have to fight to hold it back. when you call, i have to pretend that everything is fine for fear of showing attitude. its draining me, just like hows its draining you. and i just cant be happy again. I tired to understand you are having many problems in your life, but i cant take the swings so frequently. im lost. i dunnoe what to do. someone, anyone, guide me please?-
im exhausted, mentally and physically.
