School started.
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even before the first day of school officially started,homework was issued.made me bring the assignment all the way down to boon lay for handing up.mind you,i had no lessons on that day.the 2hr odd journey almost killed me as i snuggled up against the seat freezing my butt away.siggh.i declare i hate school but everyone hates it.urgh
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i think im the lousiest moron on earth.im just so lousy lousy lousy.jus hate myself so much.urgh
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anyway school started officially yesterday.went to school for seminar.was late for half hour so the tutor can remember my name.grouped up with a bunch of peeps whereby 2 are ex sem mates.well,i really dunnoe watta say.we were doing sth i had learnt before so i offered my suggestions,as in just saying,"maybe we should..."they insisted no.fine.when the model answer came out,it was exactly like how i suggested.whatttever.lalalala.i know im going to hate the class.
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went for lectures today.dismissed a whole hour early.went for lunch with haos and cy.boring.
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rK: i dint forget you!you just dun wanna work so we dunt even get to meet up!every time ask u out just project project project still dare to say?!ER REN XIAN GAO ZHUANG

backlash:oki doki.so when r u recovering?!LOLL.by pay day can anot!!

xin:who's the one you know?

Len:HeeHee.dun wanna learn bike le.im lazy la...
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i miss my hips.hais.

i jus called the tiny one,she was crying so badly.siggh.the stress is getting to her i guess.O level stress.now when did i take my Os.like a few years ago.siggh.i dunt recall being so stressed!i thought As was a million times worst.but nevertheless,that hippo of mine went to flare up at her family members...luckily i called only after she finished flaring.-phew.LOLL.i hope she cheers up soon.she is doing her art now.please pray that she finishes soon and good and stop losing her stuffs.i miss you baby.jiaa you!i know you can do it alright?huggers.
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being free lately cause my prac6 is on monday,cant book any earlier slots.hate school.its starting in a few days time.definitely hinder my bike license.siggh.i wonder if i will have the faith to finish it really.im so terrified of being stuck at practicals,or failing my TP consistently?TP takes a month and the half.siggh.lets see how alright?i realised everyone's wishlist always include getting a license.LOLL.no wonder the driving centers are so rich.haiyos.
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having tuitions later.i hate the gerl.i seriously hate her!urgh.i tried to escape a few times but her mum keeps calling.urgh!sucks la.siggh.but i have no choice.i haven complete the one month yet =((
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hope i can finish my 8 pracs by this month.then take TP and get my bike before my birthday?cross fingers.

okie,it has been a long time since i last blogged.lets see what happened these days
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i passed my circuit assessment on my second attempt.kinda glad.i thought i was gg to fail.hit a red light,let my right leg down twice,almost fell from plank and yadayada, really thought my assessment would have things like 6 immediate failure or sth.in the end,my frend got 28 and my book was separated from hers.learnt that i passed.14 demerit points.got a shock of my life man.but as wei says, heck la,pass can le.applied for my pdl.25 bucks dang ex la.going on the road on monday night.no night lessons til then,so long.sigh.hope can get my license soon =))
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i went over to da baby's house last night.we walked to central tos ettle our stuffs.has little tiffs as usual but all is well.slept in her arms last night.or hmm,the other way round,baby's currently very upset over her oral,so i shall leave her alone.i miss her terribly,but she is sleeping.sighh.cant wake her up.missing you bee bee =((
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just came back from chomp chomp with cindy and her friend.ate a lot.i think i ate the most.sorry for irritating you and thanks for the company!
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work at 10am tml.but finally,its a day with no tuition so im kinda happie. =))

okie,so i had my prac 5 today.fail dang horribly la.34 demerit points.alamak.pengs can.i still tot passable.guess why i had so many points?i passed all my circuits within the time limit okie.except for narrow plank miss by 30 ms.dang f. up la.like that minus 4 points. kena demerit pts for wrong signal.wad the f?i dint even noe where?!kena 6 pts for inadequate spped.another fark lor.and dunnoe a few more for blind spots and incorrect posture dunnoe wad shyt la.wah biang.34 can.never mind la.take my time.so lazy to learn le.
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cheryl is mugging currently,feel so neglected.but she says its the same when i studee.so can school starts now?but when school start my bike prac will be hindered.urgh.why dint i learn earlier like last yr?stupid cel.everytime just make stupid decisions.new term means new classmates.so scary lah. =((
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having suqad bbq tml!yea man!so excited.finally going out alright!i cant wait man.i jus got my pay.dang happy la.can spend spend spend!should be going out with Lorr on tuesday or wednesday,not confirm.she forever dang draggy want la.yawns.
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having prac 5 again on sunday.hope i pass.den can apply pdl go road anyhow chiong.then can take tp soon.im getting sick of ssdc le orh!

have i changed?
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i think to a certain extent, yes maybe.
or rather, ya i changed alot.
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things got me thinking. my work my tuitions my bike my studies. my life revolved around these currently. i lost the goal of my life, the aim of my life
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random thoughts in my head, but i have no idea how to blog it down. feel lost and confused.
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saw jac at ssdc today. kinda cheered me up. a familiar face. i miss the good old cedar days.
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oki someone jus messaged me, am surprised. lol
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Lorr is taking a bloody long time to reply cos she is using a new phone and she says she doesnt know how to use it well. im bored
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alright off to find permutation notes
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i know i can, alone.
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im no longer sure the importance of your existance since your expectations is the impossibles.

screams, shouts, abuses and the lists goes on. the ear is hurting, the heart is bleeding. no, it has nothing to do with me and cheryl. but more like my parents. The moment i stepped home this morning, i was greeted with screams and shouts. i think to me and ken, we no longer have a dad. i dont mind seriously, who needs a dad who doesnt do anything for the family? shrugs.
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mum is pouring all her woes about that man again. hais. driving me nuts.i had tuitions everyday and when i come home, and need a break/rest, im greeted with all these. cheryl's house used to be a form of refuge but no longer cause she fights with me too. lol. any house wanna take me in? lol. sigghh man.
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having prac5 circuit test tml,still have no confidence on the narrow plank.inconsistent. lucky i can pass it,unlucky might not even ascend it. shruggs. am tired of everything la.i dunt see myself riding a bike any longer. i think its peer influence thats why i went to learn. nodd!
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girlfriend is doing her crowning right now, and she is not replying. RAH! for the whole morning i got only one message! siggh. im bored outta my head, and i miss her. siggh! RAH!
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mum is indulging herself in dao lang. his voice is not bad seriously. anyway
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we came a long way to what we have now.
there were times of tears and hurts
there were also tears of touch and love
we went through what most people hasnt
we sticked through thick and thin much longer then what most people had
we had confusions at times
we had doubts some other times
but everytime we cleared up all the unnecessaries
to find that our love was much stronger than what we imagined it to be
9 mths 7 days
i love you still baby =))

everything is fine between the hippo and cowie now =))
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anyway my hair is f.king long!i can tuck it behind my ears?!hais.but cut so xin tong...somemore im in marketing.need to wear skirt.OMG.
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i failed my prac4 part 2 today.not terribly,but as usual,that stupid plank hindered my stupid progress.all they say is "go faster go faster".like how?frowns.feel like fiving up.fel failed her prac 5 only 2 times and wanna give up le,feel like smacking her.waste me so many sms to ask her not to give up.anyway gonna try again on sunday.wish me luck i guess.
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waiting for so many tuition replies now.all these parents ar,just dun wanna confirm asap.dang angrrry la.make my bike prac dang unstable.dunnoe wanna book not,waste time.today's tuition was boring.he was yanwning away.but he always yawns.always say he very tired?lol.i dint yawn.cos i slept for 2 hours before that,and all that was in my head was the dang plank.feel so sick.wanna puke pls.
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jus called wei.as usual. she is surrounded by gerls.haiyos.wanna ask her out also difficult.so many ex-es around her.faints.
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today is my 9th month supposedly.but.well.all i can say is,its not happy.i dunnoe.everything has changed.
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its hard holding you, loving you, losing you
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im perfectly fine standing alone thank you very much